‘I’m gonna be free and I’m gonna be fine’

‘On our way, so it seems’

I remember when this song was new in the world and so was I, in a way.

Memphis. Windows down, sun setting, so bored and lost that I felt annoyed by all the goddamned freedom.

The past several months (years) have worn me down in ways I could not have predicted but that seem necessary for me to evolve. I’ve made some very difficult decisions but I am buoyed by the thought of better days to come. My story isn’t done. It’s just getting started. I’ve got a little partner in crime now and we have the silliest adventures and I am watching the road laid out in front of us, arcing toward something great. I could not have predicted that part of the story if you’d asked me a year ago.

‘Sometimes you’re half in, and then you’re half out’

Obsessed with this song. And the video (which is NSFW for one sec because boobs).

‘If I had a voice I would sing’

More, give me more, give me more.

‘Slow dream plannin’ up my next scheme’

Sleater-Kinney coming back from the dead at this moment in my life is serendipity.

Now if Rage Against the Machine could get back to it, that’d be perfection.

‘You got a copperhead kiss hidden up your sleeve, thirty-three’

I’ll be 33 in two weeks.

To mark this occasion, I have Googled famous people who died at 33 and re-learned that Chris Farley and John Belushi were both 33 at the moment of their untimely demises. Not to mention good ol’ Eva Braun, who is the postergal for bad taste in men.

Ahhhh, what a refreshing dose of reality on the eve of my continued slog toward middle age.

I am going to go ahead and start wistfully thinking back on 32 since it takes me a month to write a single post these days.

Thirty-two was a good year. I kind of can’t believe it went down how it did but I’m happy with it. I did some things I never dreamed I would or could but now I have a bit of a taste for the unexpected and unobtainable. So we will see how that pans out.