{"id":4301,"date":"2010-10-03T01:58:21","date_gmt":"2010-10-03T07:58:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/?p=4301"},"modified":"2010-10-03T02:41:23","modified_gmt":"2010-10-03T08:41:23","slug":"a-thought-before-the-sleeping-pills-kick-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/why-am-i-telling-you-this\/a-thought-before-the-sleeping-pills-kick-in\/","title":{"rendered":"A thought before the sleeping pills kick in*"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I spend a lot of time fighting my gut feelings and trying to convince myself that they are off base, not real, exaggerated, etc.<\/p>\n<p>And every fucking time, my gut feelings have been on point. <\/p>\n<p>Every time. <\/p>\n<p>Every time. <\/p>\n<p>Every fucking time. <\/p>\n<p>And yet I keep plugging along, each new experience giving me a chance to say, <i> No, gut, you&#8217;re wrong this time<\/i>. <i>You know, gut, you sure are paranoid for no reason<\/i>. <i>Gut, you moron, everything&#8217;s going to be A-OK<\/i>. And then each new experience reaffirms what I already fucking knew: That my gut is the only thing in this world that does not lie to me. <\/p>\n<p>Some day \u2014 some day <i>soon<\/i> \u2014 I will stop doubting myself and finally listen to that voice. <\/p>\n<p>* and I don&#8217;t mean in a scary way but in an &#8220;I&#8217;m really worked up and need something to put me to sleep so I can get up at a reasonable hour tomorrow&#8221; way<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I spend a lot of time fighting my gut feelings and trying to convince myself that they are off base, not real, exaggerated, etc. And every fucking time, my gut feelings have been on point. Every time. Every time. Every fucking time. And yet I keep plugging along, each new experience giving me a chance to say, No, gut, you&#8217;re wrong this time. You know, gut, you sure are paranoid for no reason. Gut, you&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[355],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4301","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-why-am-i-telling-you-this"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1jWWl-17n","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4301","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4301"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4301\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4307,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4301\/revisions\/4307"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4301"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4301"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4301"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}