{"id":6943,"date":"2014-09-20T00:11:06","date_gmt":"2014-09-20T06:11:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/?p=6943"},"modified":"2014-09-20T00:14:23","modified_gmt":"2014-09-20T06:14:23","slug":"unexpected-momentum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/why-am-i-telling-you-this\/unexpected-momentum\/","title":{"rendered":"Unexpected momentum"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/theogeo\/15290530461\" title=\"Status: I&#x27;m doing fine. by Lindsey Turner, on Flickr\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/farm4.staticflickr.com\/3881\/15290530461_78d1fe97f8.jpg\" width=\"500\" height=\"500\" alt=\"Status: I&#x27;m doing fine.\"><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Tonight I was leaving work and taking the stairs because the elevator is out, and I caught a glimpse of myself in the stairwell window. And I was sort of taken aback by the sight of myself \u2014\u00a0my hair is long, suddenly; I&#8217;m in long sleeves, suddenly; I wear glasses, suddenly, except I have for so very long now and have yet to get used to the idea \u2014 and the sight made me happy for once. Like every other person ever, I tend to go negative when faced with a reflective surface. But for some reason tonight looking up and seeing my reflection was a comfort. I am a living, breathing, working, questioning, hoping being. I learn things every single day and it&#8217;s been a long time since I&#8217;ve been truly bored. I&#8217;m working so insanely hard these days and trying to be a good parent and daughter and sibling and partner. So much is happening right now in my family and professional life that it&#8217;s kind of impossible to lasso. Someday I hope to be able to write about it all (The Great Family Insanity of Mid-2014) but in my old and wizened state, I am trying to let dust settle when I can before kicking it back up again. (My employers circa 2009 would be so proud to hear this, I bet!)<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s kind of insane the degree to which so many things have fallen apart these past few weeks. But it&#8217;s equally insane the degree to which so many things are getting set up to happen. Potentially. Although, maybe not. That&#8217;s the problem with potential.<\/p>\n<p>And while I have to mourn the loss of things that can&#8217;t ever be the same again, I&#8217;m not afraid. We keep moving forward until we don&#8217;t move anymore. That&#8217;s what we do. If I&#8217;ve learned anything it&#8217;s that This Is What We Do, even when we don&#8217;t have any clue what we&#8217;re doing. <\/p>\n<p>That comforts me. Because tonight I saw someone in the window reflection who clearly understood that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Tonight I was leaving work and taking the stairs because the elevator is out, and I caught a glimpse of myself in the stairwell window. And I was sort of taken aback by the sight of myself \u2014\u00a0my hair is long, suddenly; I&#8217;m in long sleeves, suddenly; I wear glasses, suddenly, except I have for so very long now and have yet to get used to the idea \u2014 and the sight made me happy&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[355],"tags":[500,1027,675,2050,2107],"class_list":["post-6943","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-why-am-i-telling-you-this","tag-family","tag-life","tag-musing","tag-secrets","tag-why-am-i-telling-you-this-3"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1jWWl-1NZ","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6943","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6943"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6943\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6947,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6943\/revisions\/6947"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6943"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6943"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theogeo.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6943"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}