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Monster baby

Originally we were trying to figure out if this child is a zombie or a vampire. When his daddy holds him, he rares his head back and bobs around, mouth agape, around Daddy’s clavicle and face, trying to devour him. So, one point for zombie. And he looooves to suck. And suck and suck and suck. So, one point for vampire. But then we thought maybe he’s got a streak of werewolf in him, because…

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Two weeks: The complaints!

There is this little mercurial creature hanging around my house and we don’t speak each other’s language but we’re learning. My emotions twist and turn with every involuntary grimace on his face. I am his huckleberry. The hardwiring is intense. I get caught up in the brutal cycle of wondering if I’m doing an OK job and asking myself, “Is my baby happy?” The latter is a crazy question. What does that even mean —…

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Holden’s home birth

Soooooo. Friday night when I thought I was going to be so clever and go to bed for some much-needed rest before the big contractions began, my body had other much bigger plans. Almost as soon as I laid down, I started feeling those radiating menstrual cramps in my back, and they were immediately strong enough to wake me as I would be dozing off. I started timing them and they were coming roughly 10…

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